Almost 9 years ago I went to a party and was raped by a stranger. This event changed my life drastically. Although I did not at the time know what Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) was, it began to run my life, changing my mood, behavior and physical responses to everyday events. After months of research and a caring friend whom made me aware of PTSD ( which until this point I had believed was only related to the military), I was able to find several resources that helped me. I became obsessed with reading survivor stories because it made me feel less alone; the problem was all these resources and stories were limited; not to mention they focused on the attack and shortly after but that is not where these women’s struggles ended. I wanted to know more…did they piece themselves back together? Did they find happiness again?
1 in 4 women will be sexually assaulted in their lifetime but this topic has such a strong social stigma most women stay silent. It was only once I began sharing my story, that I realize that survivors were all around me. Society and my disorder had tricked me into feeling isolated, like no one else could relate. I believed that there was no way of moving forward without keeping what happened to me and my inability to process it, a secret. Over time I have made some unbreakable bonds with rape survivors from around the world and they all agreed that something has to change. We need more information to be provided to victims and the people who care for them. It has taken me years to come out so publicly with my story, after years of being held back from shame and the fear of other's reactions. I am ready now to scream from the mountain tops that I will no longer stay silent. I did everything society told me to do in order to not to get raped, I dressed appropriately, didn’t binge drink, and took years of self-defense, but it didn't work. What does this mean? It could happen to anyone. Something has to give, it is time for change and that starts with speaking up!
I will be using this platform to provide resources on everything PTSD related. From diagnosis and symptoms to different treatments. Each person deals with trauma in their own way, so I will be publishing numerous survivor stories ( If you would like to contribute please contact me directly at email@example.com). PTSD changes the way we process what is going on around us and I hope by letting you into my head I can change societies perception of me and people like me.
Writing is not my specialty so please bear with me through my spelling and grammer errors. I am just a math chick who feels strongly enough about a subject to write about it=)